Tonight K graduates from the 8th grade! It amazes me how fast the time has flown. One day she was being born and life had changed considerably, the next day she was walking, talking and wanting to be a princess. The following day brought Kindergarten and a whole new world of wonders with her. She was beginning to become K, not just mommy and daddy's Bug. Her personality was becoming more and more clear, and now our little princess is graduating middle school and headed to high school. As I am sad that she is no longer my little girl and doesn't need me nearly as much as she used to, I am proud of who she is becoming (though her grades could be better and her style of dress could improve a bit ☻) but all in all she is my little girl.
I miss the days of needing to hold Mommy's hand, watching them play with their toys and just being toddlers. (Don't miss the not sleeping through the night and the diapers..OOO definitely do not miss those) Even M, the baby of the family, is entering kindergarten and starting on his path to learning who he is and who he will become
I have entered a new phase of life, where I will no longer have children at home during the day. WHAT!?! You mean I can go to the grocery store and not have little ones tagging along?!? I wonder what that is like? I can clean the house in the morning and it will stay that way most of the day!? Interesting! I won't have a little one following me around, looking for something to do or going "Mommy, Mommy, MOMMY! This will be a completely new experience for me; one that at the same time as I am dreading it, I am looking forward to it. It means life is still moving on, they are still growing, still dreaming and still needing me (even if they don't always admit it) Who knows what the future holds for all of us. Only God knows. Only He knows what He has in store for us. For without Him, we have nothing. Even if we don't realize it, He is the way, the truth and the light. He is the holder of our futures.
So while I don't know what the future has in store for my family, I am looking forward to finding out and learning about the next chapters in our lives. They are yet to be written in the pages of history. Only planned out and not delivered to us until God decides it is time.
The only truly sad thing, the one thing that makes me sad for my children is that their dad, is missing out on all of it. I am truly heartbroken when I think of all that he has missed, is missing and will miss in the future. Our children are truly amazing individuals. They have grown into wonderful people. With all the frustration, missing shoes, fighting, arguing, hair pulling, barbie stealing and annoyances, not a day of it has not been worth the amazement, the wonder, the smiles, hugs, kisses, love yous, artwork, family movie nights or all the joy they bring to my life. I truly love these 4 little monsters God has given me.
Until the next scribble...
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