Choices....

I am doing something that does not come easily for me. Trusting. I am trusting God that the decision I am making for my family is the decision that is the right one for us.

Trusting anyone, especially God is difficult for me. It certainly does not come easily for me, as I am sure it doesn't come easily for a lot of people. It is hard for me to my faith in something I have never truly seen and I am not sure that I ever completely had faith He existed. I go to church and I sit there Sunday after Sunday and I pray, I worship and that is as far as its gone.

The thing is I recently had a conversation with someone. A comment this person made, made me stop to think, "How can I pray for myself when there is a parent out there who has lost a child and needs prayer more than I do. What kind of God lets bad things happen to people?" I can't say that I haven't wondered that myself. Like a lot of people in December, as I sat there watching the news about the shooting in Connecticut I asked that very question. Not just that question but, "How can I believe in a God that allows bad and terrible things to happen,"

I'd like to say I have all the answers and the truth is I don't. What I have come to the conclusion for myself is this, prayer is not just for the people who have suffered some tragic horrific loss. It is for those who are hurting, who are suffering  certainly, but it is also for those who are trying to make the right decision. Who need guidance and reassurance. I am not saying ask God if you should by the red lamp or the blue one, but life decisions are big decisions.

If God is involved with this decision, it will work out. The things that right now seem impossible will be made possible, because:

Matthew 19:26 - But Jesus beheld [them], and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Mark 10:27 - And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men [it is] impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.

Mark 11:24 - Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive [them], and ye shall have [them].

Luke 1:37 - For with God nothing shall be impossible.

And if these verses were not enough of a sign that God wants us to believe...wants me to believe, the last couple of times I was in the car.....question God (did I mention I am good at that too) I get hit with these two songs:

Overcomer by Mandisa, which is a new song and has yet to hit YouTube but one we should all listen to

and Promises by Sanctus Real

and  another song that makes me listen is Kari Jobe's, I Find You on My Knees.

So I will pray about my decision, and if it is meant to be then it will happen. If it is not, then I will know that too. I just know that this has been on my mind for awhile and I kept ignoring it....which could be why nothing changes here. All any of us can do, is trust God...and yet this is the hardest thing to do. Especially if what we want is not in His plan.

I know the where, I know my reason why, I just don't have the how as of yet. So if you have a choice, remember, you can pray about it. God wants us to pray about it. God listens to all prayers, just because he doesn't answer them, doesn't mean he didn't hear them.

Until the next Scribble....